An Effort to Do Good

Good

I have spent the day reflecting on the word "good" and what it means to me. Part of that time I was thinking about what it meant to DO good and if I did that enough. I try, honestly I do on a daily basis.

I look around at the world, our society, my neighborhood. There are so many chances for a person do something to help the fellow human being, and half the time it goes undone. It makes me sad at times, I still have not figured out the philisophy behind that mentality. Lets face it, when your time comes and you need help aren't you going to be wondering why no one is helping you. It doesn't take much.

I look at our schools, we just left Indiana because of my husband's job and moved to Ohio. the school system we left was the best in the area academically but there were not any sports, music or art programs for the kids. Budget cuts. And now here, we are in the one of the top two school systems here and luckily they have band and art and the gym classes offer cool things like archery. But we are facing loosing those programs due to not enough money in the budget from the state. Which set me into motion. Our children are the future of this world and if they do not have all the oppurtunties that we had how can they be prepared to make this world better.

So I came up with a solution. One of my businesses that I run on the internet will allow me to set the each school up individually to make money to support the programs they have and add more if needed. It has the potential to bring the school over $4000 a month. Each school in our system. It doesn't require anyone to do anything different then what they do already, just to adjust how they do it. And it helps the school. Most of the people around here are complaining about the levy that is being voted on because the school doesn't know where else to get the money they need to operate, so with my program they don't need to spend any extra. I am hoping that it works and we get the school the money they need.

Another project of mine is to build a playground in our neighborhood for all the kids. We live in a nice neighborhood, and there are tons of kids here. Our community has a pool, but nothing else for the kids to do. There are still a few vacant lots around and one of then could be used for a playground. With benches and trees, a nice community family place. I talked with another parent in the community last night and she was really excited and offered her assistance and ideas. I am really looking forward to this project. I am hoping that we can get it done this summer. And this project just makes my heart soar I tell you. It will make my day when it is done.

I was a nurse, and I went into nursing to make a difference in peoples' lives. A postivie difference. I think most of the time I succeded. I know that I had a number of patients that made a very big difference on mine.

To me that is what "good" is. It is making a positive difference in the lives of the people around you. It doesn't take much. Smile at people, hold the door, help carry groceries, offer your ear or shoulder to someone that needs it. I used to laugh at the fact that total strangers would come up to me an pour thier hearts and souls out to me, now it makes me humble. There are times when the best thing you can do to help someone is to listen to them. Hear what they are saying. That is the greatest good you can do, listen.

Fantasy

I use to write fantasy stories all the time. Great rich love stories with a hero and tragedies and successes. So that you read them and went "Wow". Fantasy becuase they weren't real, and I didn't believe that they could be. My grandparents had a fantasy love story. They literally lived and died for one another. I spent my life looking for that, my mom always telling me that it wasn't real, and I was going to be greatly disappointed. I was the first time around.

And then... I met a truly amazing man. I wasn't looking for anyone. Had gotten divorced, never planned on doing it again. Notice I say divorced and not married. And then he came along.

Our situation at first was not ideal or perfect by anyone's standards, but it required trust and understanding. Societal and cultural differences and demands. We were honest with one another from the start, and it brought about this fantasy of a marriage and relationship into reality.

My husband is the first person that I can honestly tell you that I need. He completes me. I know that I would be lost with out him. I also know that he feels the same way about me. For though I have only said it once, he has told me on different occassions. It is enlightening to love someone so much and so completely. There is a peace that comes with it.

He is my hero, we have struggled through our tragedies and have arisen stronger then we were before. He is my knight in shining armour. For me, the sun rises and sets within him. And though I am not christian in faith, the one thing I pray to the universe to ask for is that if this is a fantasy... that it never is dissolved by reality.

He makes me feel good enough. Real. Loved.